.:jOurney of my life:.

2007-09-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

work have been taking up majority of my time.

2007-08-04T17:15:00.000+08:00

i miss school.

i miss those days.

i miss my grandpa.

i miss my childhood life.

2007-08-03T13:17:00.001+08:00

good news. .

starting from this week I just have to work 5 days a week instead of 51/2 day!!

finally. . able to get to rest. .

....................................

my eyes are tired . . . sleepy mood

2007-08-01T08:38:00.000+08:00

maybe i shld vanish from the world too . .

get everything started all over again.

perhaps it might be a good solution. . .

2007-07-24T17:21:00.000+08:00

A random post,

finally, manage to solve my layout.

After all, things are not that simple.

2007-03-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

this entry was from min zhen's blog.
i juz feel that this entry is kinda true so thought of copy-ing/stealing it from her blog.

is it true that we tend to take all things for ganted when we are too comfortable with each other?

is it true that we can skip all the "necessary" stuff and procedures when we are sooo comfortable and close with each other? we start to take things for granted.. thinking that the other party will noe and will uds. we skip explanations, we skip the courtesy of informing and, we even skip courtesy. courtesy of saying sorries, thanks and gratitude.

in exchange, we lied and hide instead of being honest. we forgot abt apologies when we did wrong. when things are given to us, we take and nv thanked the person. all becos, we think they'll uds. we thought they'll noe and feel the same like we do. we thought they'll uds how we felt. we thought. but it is true?

nowadays, we are getting used of taking in. we forgot abt balance. give and take. where's the "give"?

when giving becomes a tired action, it'll stop. only then the recipent will feel werid. cos he/she isn't "recieving" anything again. they became used to. now, no more. the balance broke.

2007-03-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

shes so adorable.

2007-03-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

exam over = end of my jouney in polytechnic.

another chapter in my life will be starting soon.

2007-02-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

grab this photos from jessica's blog.

2007-01-31T11:11:00.000+08:00

life is fragile.

one can just die or fall sick anytime.

how i wish things are at my control.

i mull over. when and how then will things turn out better?

i hate to be in this dilemma situation.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

two months times, i’m gonna to graduate.

My plan was either to go oversea to further studies or taking part time degree in Singapore.

i wanna go oversea...... but am I up to it?

Questions that I keep asking myself:

am I that independence?

do I bear to part with my loved ones, my friends and all?

how I wish, someone will be able to make the decision for me.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

busy in school, tons of projects.

i feel lucky to meet a few great and sincere friends in poly.

during these periods, without their encouragement, the care that they showered me, I doubt I will be able to undergo and survive through. *thanks.

not only friends in poly but there are still a few of them that I have known them for very long.

without their company to drink, party, console that they gave and heart to heart talk, I think it will have been a tough period for me.

counting down.

looking forward to the party on Friday!!

2007-01-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

SHIT!!! i'm getting fatter & shorter.

2007-01-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

=...(

2006-12-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

i hate going to hospital.

i dislike the smell.

i'm beginning to dislike december.

why do mishap had to happened during december.

life is so unpredictable.

2006-11-10T17:26:00.000+08:00

end of Internship.

11 weeks had passed. everything coming to an end.

i know i'm gonna miss this place.

though i keep on complaining that its so stressful, so boring and stuff.

But the people that I met were really great.

They are a bunch of nice and easy-going folks.

They teach me a lot of things that I won’t learn in txt or even school.

Good bye all, take care till we meet. =)

________________________

school start on Monday. *mixed feeling

somehow or rather i gotta use of working life, sleeping before 11pm and woke up early to work.

but i miss school too, coz of the special people around me. haha.

lalala. looking forward to the upcoming chalet which is TML!!! lol

2006-11-09T09:01:00.000+08:00

haha. took this photo from yy's blog. =P

heehees, nowadays i keep stealing stuff from people's blog.

but i dun care. coz they are nice people who aint so selfish, ya?

lol.

ohya. the photo was taken at Dlb O.

PS: no more clubbing for me.

yawns

2006-11-09T08:48:00.000+08:00

i'm like so sO So SO tired!!!

i wanna sleep!! *blah!!!!

2006-11-08T08:50:00.000+08:00

I'm just too bored.
took this entry from min's blog. =)

Rules:1. Bold the following words that are true about you.
2. Green! the things you wish were true.
3. add one thing true about you

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lens.(lens are making my eyes crazy!)
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. (to a extent) my director on Medial leave tml!!!
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. :)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now. (holidays, new camera, new HP, etc. . !)
I love sushi.
I talk really really fast/unclear.
I have long hair. (for like YEARS!!)
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings. (PMS)
I have a hidden talent. (for me to noe, for u to find out!) =P
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.. (most of the time)
I have alot of friends. (It's quality, not quantity!) - -> agree
I am unclear of something.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (any sponsor)
Enjoy window-shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. (learning and learning)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant past or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment! (minus away internship!!)
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time. (how I wish I would!)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (I’m sux in planning!)
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at MacDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the wrong people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers more than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. (depending on wat's the item)
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet. (no determination) =(
I talk in my sleep. Ooops!!!
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring. (more than one)
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. (i love the group of babes.)
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates and crowns! (but its making me putting on weight!)
I go to school NOT for the sake of lessons. (but for the sake of my Friends)
I can't ride a bicycle.
I feel crazy. (at times i do)
I love tomatoes!
I like peanut butter on bananas. (yucks)
Been told "You're on fire!"
I'm a netballer. (in secondary school days)
I believe in Serendipity.
I think the word 'RASPBERRY' is sexaaay!
I love to look at people's teeth.
I don't wanna grow up.
I can cross my eyes n stick out my tongue n still look cute.
Gaining weight is a wonderful thing. (no!no!no! only for JH) whaha..
I am a PRO...
I am a corporate chick.
I love soft-toys and I think I'm going to have a roomful of them nxt time!
I cannot miss a day of workout.
I have dimples.
I am always LATEEEE.
I’m short. But still I love my height!!! =)

Obar

2006-11-05T19:13:00.000+08:00

O bar was great!!

i'm totally drunk and puke like dog. *haha ~~shy~~

thanx Furry for taking care of mi. *Muacks.

it was a wonderful nite, you gals was so fun to hang out with.

humpf!!!! jes was lucky to have a fireman to look after her when shes drunk (envy)

haha, however me too have a SUPERman to take care of me that nite too. wahahah!!

~~kidding~~

thanks YY babe, for the invitation.

Sorry, its ur birthday celebration but yet we didn't make u look silly instead we are the ones. lol

nvm jes and me will make sure fer and u be the one to puke in our next trip, ya. =P

we gotta drown ourselves silly for the next trip.

2006-11-01T14:15:00.000+08:00

.daydream.dreaming.daydream.dreaming.

lol

i.luve.it

yeahp!!!

2006-10-30T15:56:00.000+08:00

2006-10-30T14:38:00.000+08:00

.life's so bored.

2006-10-28T15:42:00.000+08:00

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE

Name: Ai Qing
Birth date: 26th Dec
EyeColor: black, brown when wearing lens
Hair Color: black with mixture of brown?
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

LAYERTWO: ON THE INSIDE

Your heritage: chinese
Your fears: People who's Pretentious
Your weakness: soft hearted, navie.

LAYER THREE:YESTERDAY,TODAY,TOMORROW

Your thoughts first waking up: what am i gotta do for the rest of the day!
Your bedtime: weekdays before 1130, weekend erms. . anytime.
Your most missed memory: every moment in my life.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK

Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: my all time fav. Chocolate!!
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee, cant live without it.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

Smoke: no! Dislike. yucks.
Curse: i do. haha.
Take a shower: of course, who doesnt?
Have a crush: yup.
Like(s) school: ya. i miss school coz of the nice ppl that i had met. =)
Want to get married: yes. i'm lookin forward.
Believe in yourself: erms. at times do have doubts.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH

Drank alcohol: *laughs. i dont? believe. haha =P
Gone to the mall: ya. town, town and only town.
Been on stage: nah. Eaten Sushi: ya. *drooling.
Been dumped: not sure. for u to find out, for me to know.
Dyed your hair: nah. should i?

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER

Played a stripping game: Nah. never

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD

Age your hoping to be married: urms. till someone willing to marry me. lol

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY

Best eye color: brown
Best hair color: black

LAYER TEN:WHAT WERE YOU DOING

1MINUTE AGO: typing answering bored question to keep myself occupied.
HOUR AGO: hmmm. chatting in msn, listening to songs.
5 HOURS AGO: updating my diary.
1 WEEK AGO: Town with Juan.
1YEAR AGO: no idea. anyone wanna tell me, ya?

LAYER 11:FINISH THE SENTENCE

I LOVE: anything on earth.
I FEEL: bored, and sleepy.
I HATE: yet to be confirmed.
I HIDE: my feelings..
I MISS: someone.?
I NEED: air-ticket to US, erms. take a look at my wishlists? haha. happiness too.

east coast park

2006-10-23T13:41:00.000+08:00

woke up damn early yest. *yawns

went to pick up my cousin, uncles and aunties.

took us about 3hours for the preparation of foods and stuff.

picnic at east coast park was fabulous moreover the company was great. .

a pic speaks a thousand words:

my apologise. i'm juz too lazy to make it neat.

bear with it. haha. =)

humans

2006-10-18T12:01:00.000+08:00

I feel that being human being is tough and complex.

At times you have to hide your emotion in order to prevent family or friends to worry.

Or perhaps due to other reasons.
But the feeling really suck. It's painful.

But. . . . .you are left with no alternative.

perhaps that is why there are people who say that human are hard to understand.

2006-10-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

2006-10-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

i freaking hate my life!!!!!

fuck

2006-10-13T08:56:00.000+08:00

2006-10-11T15:17:00.000+08:00

For one more day - another new novel by Mitch Albom.

. . . . If you had the chance, just one chance, to go back and fix what you did wrong in life, would you take it? And if you did, would you be big enough to stand it?

considering whether to buy this book or juz borrow from the library.

any suggestion??

2006-10-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

count down, twenty three days to go!! *wavewave!!

however came to think about it.

i will miss the people here.

though the work is kinda stress (stress that i gave myself) but people over here are really nice and sociable.

hmmms. furthermore my DD quite good looking too. *haha

too bad, unable to take a pic of him. gees. .

time table out. Hurray!

latest class will be at SIX pm. !!!

in addition its only a four day school!!

Yeahp!

=] two more days will get my pay for September!

2006-10-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

Thanks to this someone who cheer me up previously.

Hopefully my entry wasn't too late.

2006-10-02T10:59:00.000+08:00

Istean private sales was Great!

But the company was being better.

Was there with Jia Hui, she can really shop like mad!

heehee.

we had lots of fun shopping and chilling at TCC.

took a few photos, will upload soon!

I, Tan Ai Qing hereby *declare bankrupt.

spent nearly $350. =(

i'm utterly penniless now. argh!!

*phew!! lucky, there is a big shot (Wei Xiang) who sponsor 100bucks to my pocket!!

*haha.

Thanx

2006-09-29T09:12:00.000+08:00

tired. exhausted. drained. worn-out. dishearten. weary. turmoil. disarray. sadden. demoralize. shattered.

2006-09-23T06:01:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=(

i'm feeling damn ultra freaking terrible.

i wanna leave this world!!!

-kill me and let me die now.

2006-09-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

had a frightening dream last nite.

perhaps too stress over work.

scary indeed.

signz. hopefully my internship will be over soon.

*humps.

2006-09-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

i begin to hate work.

task allocated are so damn chim.

argh.

how i wish i will have chicken-pox.

then i will be on MC for almost two weeks.

*signz

someoone plz get mi out of this place.!.!

2006-09-20T11:30:00.000+08:00

Infrastructure. Creative industries. Advertising. Arts. Cultural. Mapping. Intellectual property. Richard Florida. Creativity. Manpower. Framework. Apprenticeship. Media. Supply chain. Government. Economy program. GDP. Globally Integrated Enterprise. Creative cluster.

2006-09-19T09:38:00.001+08:00

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2006-09-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

*DXO

2006-09-15T13:29:00.000+08:00

yeap.!

new earring.

thanx.

you are so sweet.

oh gosh. i'm gonna fall for u soon. lol

-appreciated

2006-09-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

Just came back from lunch at a japanese restaurant (Kura No NaKa) is located beside Crazy Horse.

Food over there was yummy, the serving was huge and as for the ambience it was nice.

The layout of the restaurant was kinda different, its unique.

-thumbs up

*heehee

its was a treat from our assistant director, he juz came back from a course.

Hes a nice chap, in terms of, he jokes with us, hes chatty unlike the manager who dun really talk to us. He is like a loner to me. Lol

*bored in office

2006-09-13T09:22:00.000+08:00

result out.

*signz

2006-09-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

i'm too naive.!!.

i'm such a fool!

2006-09-03T11:59:00.000+08:00

nobody loves me,

everybody hates me.

2006-09-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

2006-09-01T10:09:00.000+08:00

Sunday sentosa confirm.

even if Juan dun wanna go. i will still go ahead.

i wanna tan.

plz. hope sun's weather gotta be super ultra sunny.!.!

p.s: Juan go kie? if not i'm gonna be alone. *grins

furthermore it have been kinda long since we last catch up.

-misses

2006-08-31T18:05:00.000+08:00

dying dying dying

knowing the tasks that we needed to do over at MICA.

making mi stress now.

loan a few books about Creativity the class, value chain and GIE !!

i am able to predict that the next few weeks in MICA gonna make mi bald.

shit!

its stress over here but then i feel i would have learn something and its rather kind of interesting and challenging.

the main problem that i'm afraid of is that i might hand in the wrong stuffs to them,

things that might not be relevant or even things that i did might be rubbish nonsense.

people assume that creative industries is just about designing a product or even branding,

but nah, after days in MICA i get to know that creative industries does not only concern about the design it also include sectors like media, arts, culture and software, is just like integrating them together.

there are a lot of things to take into consideration.

i admire my supervisor.

shes so capable.

well.

aim after my internship:

to be more organize.
to establish an effective time management.
to be more careful in managing my work.

think that's about all for now.

*signz

"hopefully things will just turn out well"

may God bless. . . . .

time check: home sweet home. =(

2006-08-30T17:00:00.000+08:00

juz another day.. boring.

i wish i'm at home right now.

such a nice and good weather to slp.

i miss my slp.

basically over here at mica ( me ca ) is juz another slacking-away day for me..

*sleepy. yawns

everyone in the office are so quiet and busy doing their stuff.

HELP!!!!

no life!!

i miss the babes.

i WANNA gossips, laugh, chit chat!!! =(

2006-08-30T08:43:00.000+08:00

i miss the sun, the beach, the sand, the babes, the hunks!!!!

2006-08-29T12:32:00.000+08:00

Internship at MICA

day one

nothing much to do. just read through a ultra thick report, newsletter and surf the net to find out more about creative industries.

people over here was pretty much friendly. but well is only the first few days, never know till the end of the internship.

*negative thoughts.

humans what, you will never know what is their motives and what they gonna do.

but somehow i doesnt seen to like the environment over here.

day two

had a meeting with my supervisors, Grace and Varian.

till now they still haven brief us about our job scope.

OMG. meeting and without meeting things are still the same.

what's the point then.

after lunch. head back to office.

later still have meeting with the director, and we gotta attend.

*signz

gonna be bored. hopefully i wont dozed off. lol

2006-08-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

2006-08-24T14:18:00.000+08:00

tired.

sleepy.

my 2.5 years in Poly.

i think this semester is the only sem whereby i put in lots of effort revising.

IPP gotta start next week.

there aint enough time for mi to play + relax + enjoy

*signz.

the pay is damn pathetic.

how am i gonna survive.

i'm so grumpy. *argh

=p

2006-08-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

phew!!!!!

finally. exam ended.

2006-08-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

IPP posting out.

attach to Ministry of Information, Communication and the arts.

not very sure abt the company.

but hopefully everything turn out well.

Hui ci attach to UOB (toa payoh area),
good for her the place so near her house.

mine sucks.

predict:

gotta be late for work almost everyday. lol

Jess attach to a company around suntec area

as for JH, he got into a tour agency.

sound great.

can plan to go holidays. *shiok *signz

but the end result is that the four of us got into different companies and the location is so damn far.

it mean less meet up, catch up and gossipS.

-misses

2006-08-17T15:50:00.000+08:00

one down threee to go.

endure.

2006-08-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

wow. if i will to have a universal remote. .

haha. i will do lot and lots of things.

i will:

fast forward the exams,
stop my PS lecturer and skip the presentation,
slow down all the precious moments,
fast forward all the troubles and problems

that's about all bah.

___________________________________________________

few days back i had a bad dream.

i dreamt that i commit suicide.

and my dad juz ignore me.

i was so depressed.

begin to get worry.

am i suffering from depression?

ehs. . i miss my grandpa.

i miss his presence.

2006-08-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hurray. !!!

Hui Ci gonna join us this fri at DXO...

*yeah

[claps for her]

-looking forward. .

2006-08-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

haiz. i spent money again.

shit.!

i have been controlling myself.

but still i cant resist the temptation.

as what jes said. look at it long terms.

the cushion gonna be useful.

i'm gotta stop myself from entering town.

no more shopping.

2006-07-30T01:45:00.000+08:00

i'm so in love with her.

she is the one and only which i know that will never betrayed me.

i miss her. haven been seeing her for the past few days. =(

2006-07-28T09:09:00.000+08:00

1litres of tears was nice

the story is really inspiring.

watching the show it make mi ponder abt my life.

i should have feel delighted for all the things i had.
compared to others i'm much more fortunate.
i shouldnt be so grumpy and complained so much.
i should be thankful for what i have.

i guess I never thought about how precious is the gift of life and health.
i guess I never appreciated it that much until I watched the drama!
it me realized the importance of family, true friends and human relationship.

sign. but why dun she feel the same??

dots. . . .

2006-07-24T00:32:00.000+08:00

a friend of mine wrote this while chatting with him in msn:

face it. ure nt facing the reality.

everything still gonna be the same. nothings gonna change because of u.

the world still spins and life still goes on for each and everyone out there.

a line doesnt make any difference. moreover a simple meet up.

if things will to be different. it would have happened way back.

some things in life were jus not meant to be what u expected it to be.

giving up might nt be the best out of it.

learned to swallow it definitely makes u a stronger person.

holding on to it makes u miserable.

no one gonna blame u for holding on to it.

misery jus befalls u. but no one else.

no explaination is needed to ur mighty decision.

jus be glad that someone out there still leaves u a holding hand.

where u'll definitely be save from even if ure falling into pit.

a pit never ends the story.

where persistency is almighty.

be strong and hold on to it.

u might receive the greatest treatment from it.

dont blame anyone for the mishap.

its all written and planned.

things were purely simple from the beginning.

i just find that it is meaningful so thought of copy and paste it here. yeapyeap

2006-07-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

to colin. .

hey sorry for the delayed of the pics. .

*haha

take care in army. . .

2006-07-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

yeahp =) . . i got a jack-russel from my uncle's friend.
*claps.

the previous owner named her bebe. and i dun intend to change her name.

shes so hyper. i like her so much.

might becoz of that i feel she is the only one whom i can trust
and i know she will neither betrayed me.

i will post her pic soon.

-thanx God.

_________________________

she is back.

i feel weird,

negated,

suckz,

terrible.

when will it end??

2006-07-06T18:06:00.000+08:00

The pic is taken from one of my friend's blog.

i find it rather true.

2006-07-04T11:18:00.000+08:00

Happy belated Birthday

Hui Ci and Eddie

*grins. i just bought a new bag. haha. nice big bag. i like.

2006-06-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

i'm ultra irritated.

2006-05-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Daddy.

iloveyou.

thanks for being the wonderful dad. =)

so blissful to have you.

she called up my dad today.

know that she will be coming home soon.

i feel afraid to see her again.

i guess i would have no courage to tok to her.

ever since the msg that i sent her previously.

didnt get any reply from her.

i had feel dishearten.

nevertheless, i'm looking forward for her coming back.

i miss her presence.

2006-05-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

meet up with Colin.

Poseidon was indeed a nice show.

took a few pics.

will upload soon.

hmmm. . msg to Colin:

take care in army.

erm be extra careful and have fun.
=)

all the best!

2006-05-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

to: jun huang

Happy 19th Birthday. . !

2006-05-15T16:54:00.000+08:00

msg her, wish her Happy Birthday.

was hoping to get a reply.

but sad to say there aint any reply from her.

when will this end?

is it gotta wait till i was half dead lying on the bed?

2006-05-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

photos at chalet and window shopping with fericia:

2006-05-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

i'm struck.

where do i belong to?

i feel like a ball.

being kick here and there.

i miss home but there's nothing much i can do

does she feel the same way as i do?

i wonder when will the problem be solved?

i'm worn out / tired / drained .

2006-05-04T12:33:00.000+08:00

my life sucks.

thanx babe , troubled u till so late last nite.

i still cant get the thing off my mind.

thinking and thinking

what wrong had i did?

i really wish & hope i can getaway from here.

-depress

2006-04-11T15:19:00.000+08:00

phew . . ! finally manage to survive from the job’s that Jason recommend.

Though it’s tiring but a new experience to the sport Rugby.

Is an interesting sport. If happen I have the chance I would love to try out.

But on the other hand I’m too old for it. Lolx.

- - - - - - - - - - - - -

Soon I will get out from poly.

I do wonder what my life would be like 2 years later. .

I’m getting worry. .

Initially my plan was to go overseas to further my studies but then I gotta be damn independent.

I’m afraid.

Study in Singapore?? SIM?

At the same time I’m sick of projects lectures tutorial . . .

But just a diploma cert wat prospects would I have?

*quandary

2006-04-05T09:38:00.000+08:00

Sat gotta wake up damn early to work at Kallang.

kinda curious about the job scope.

it was something related to RUGBY.

sound cool~

all thanks to Jason for the recommendation. :)

but sad to say it was only a TWO days work.

nowadays never work at hotel, perhaps becoz i seldom tok to the people there and furthermore i feel tired of the work scope.

seeking for a new job now. . .

hopefully i'm able to found one soon.

two weeks holidays getting near le.

no plan at all.

slack at home or should i go back to hotel work leh??

*ironic

will see how thing goes bahz.

i will then decide.

2006-03-29T18:02:00.000+08:00

To: DAn Lim Hock Ann!!!!

Happy 23 Birthday. . !!!!!!!!

2006-03-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

juz recieve an email from Clement.

Subject: Be Happy

i was just wondering. am i a friend to him now or am i just a passer by?

i do really hope that hes life was great and happy without mi.

i do miss him at times, i do think of what hes doing?

how's his new job? able to cope not?

but i dare not ask him. coz i noe that i hurt him too deeply.

__________________________________________

few days back . .

was having breakfast with Azlyn at Mac

a guy from Engineering School came to approach mi for my number

i gave to him as i get to see him every morning in Cheers.

Clement and him do have some common interests.

hes from dragon boat too and yup big size as in you will feel security being with him.

but hes just not my type .

the topic that we chat doesnt really interest mi. .

but as friend, i find him alright bahz. . . .

__________________________________________

Just Married

Sis and Mel got married le.

there's lot of hiccups for them but yet they still manage to get together. *gald.

i feel happy for her. i noe that she waited very long for this day..

time passes fast. .

perhaps a year later i might have a niece or nephew. .

*hee hee

2006-03-01T13:04:00.000+08:00

she is totally insane.

2006-02-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

LOVE TEST

You are walking to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house.

There are two roads to get there.

One is a straight path which takes you there quickly, but is very plain and boring.

The other is curvy and full of wonderful sights on the way, but takes quite a while to reach your loved one's house.
WHICH PATH DO YOU CHOOSE?

On the way, you see two rose bushes. One is full of white roses. One is full of red roses.

You decide to pick 20 roses for your boyfriend/girlfriend.
WHAT COLOR COMBINATION DO YOU CHOOSE?

(Any combination including all one color is fine.)

You finally get to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house.

You ring the bell and the maid answers.

You can ask the maid to please get your loved one, or you may go get them yourself.

WHICH ACTION DO YOU TAKE?

Ask the maid or do it yourself?

Now, you go up to your girlfriend/boyfriends room.

No one is there. You can leave the roses by the windowsill, or on the bed.
WHERE DO YOU PUT THE ROSES?

Bed or window?

Later, its time for bed. You and your loved one go to sleep, in separate rooms.

You wake up in the morning, and go to your boyfriend/girlfriend's room to check up on him/her. You enter the room:

IS HE/SHE AWAKE OR SLEEPING?

It's time to go home now, and you start to head back.

You can take either road home now:

The plain, boring one thats gets you home fast;

or the curvy, sight-filled road that you can just casually take your time with.
WHICH ROAD DO YOU CHOOSE?

Analysis

Which road do you choose to take to your love's house?

The roads represent your attitude towards falling in love.

If you chose the short one, you fall in love quickly and easily.

If you chose the long one, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.

What combination of roses do you choose to give your love?

The number of red roses represent how much you expect to give in a relationship.

The number of white roses represent how much you expect in a relationship.

Therefore, if a person chose all red with one white, he/she gives 90% in the relationship but expects to receive only 10% back.

Do you ask the maid to get your love, or do you do it yourself?

This question shows your attitude in handling relationship problems.

If you asked the maid to get your loved one, then you may beat around the bush, maybe asking a third party to intervene.

Avoidance of problems runs high.

If you went and got your loved one yourself, then you are pretty direct.

If there is a problem, you confront it and deal with it.

You want to work it out right away.

Where do you put the roses?

The placement of the roses indictate how often you'd like to see your boyfriend/girlfriend. Placing the roses on the bed means you need lots of reassurance in the relationship, and you'd want to see your loved one every day, if possible.

Placing the roses by the window show that you don't expect or need to see your loved one that often; seeing them just once in a while is OK.

Do you find your love asleep or awake?

asleep: You accept your loved one the way they are.

awake: You expect him/her to change for you.

Which road do you choose to go home?

The short and long roads now represent how long you stay in love.

If you chose the short one, you fall out of love easily.

If you chose the long one, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

something that i got from val's blog. kinda fun and interesting. feel free try it. =)

2006-02-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

cheers. .

suck. .my last stopover was at cheers.

ehs. having training since monday. tired.

today (sat) gotta go back for the stock-take. . furthermore 7.30AM gotta be in school.

O.M.G!!

actually. .it wasnt as bad as i think. people over there was fun.

got lots of temptation. like the foods, bao, milk and chocolates. . -looking on the bright side.

can predict that i'm gonna put on weight soOnZ. . =(

*haha.

but whatever it is.

overall it is still a cool and unforgettable experience for mi. .

.............................................................

MRC farewell party. . !!

at times i do complaint that MRC got lots of projectS and reportS to do.

but when i left that place, i kind of miss MRC.

the people over there, the laughter, jokes, gossips & etc that we shared. .

compared to my previous stopover,i get to interact & communicate more with the people there.

there are a bunch of fun loving and happening people to be with. .

take care folks. .

and we shall meet up soon. .

bye-

2006-02-06T17:49:00.000+08:00

About my Fours4:

4 jobs you had in your life

waitress . sales assistant . promoter . employee of my parents

4 movies you could watch over and over

the day after tomorrow . passion of the christ . in her shoes . king kong

4 TV shows you love to watch

nil

4 places you had lived

hougang . ubi . aljunied . seng kang

4 places you've been on vacation

malaysia . hong kong . china . _____

4 places you would rather be

paris . mauritius . finland . new zeland

4 of your favourites food

curry fish head . wan tan mee without cha sau . fish . dim sum

4 websites you visit daily

blogs . hotmail . yahoo . flowerpod

__________________________________________

Another MeX2:

3 names you go by:

aiqing . qing . m*o m*o

3 screen names you have had:

moment . my concept . online

3 physical things you like about yourself:

height . dimple . fingers

3 physical thing you don't like about yourself:

fats . pimples . teeth

3 things that scared you:

illness . unhappiness . betrayer

3 of your everyday essentials:

sun block lotion . handphone . money

3 things you are wearing right now:

DKNY watch . adidas sweater . mango skirt

3 of your favourites songs:

unbreak your heart . finally found someone . wang bu liao

3 things you want in a relationship:

faithfulness . trust . understanding partner

2 truths and a lie (not in order):

tired of living . take drugs . lucid

3 physical thing about the preferred sex that appeal to you:

smile . eyes . skin tone

3 of your favourites hobbies:

shopping . chill with my friends . day dreaming

3 thing you want to do really badly now:

brazilian wax . slim down . happiness

3 careers you're considering/you've considered:

public relation officer . high-end boutique . a job where i get to travel often

3 places you want to go on vacation:

mauritius . india . netherlands

3 kids name you like:

herman . phyllis . anson

3 things you want to do before you die:

try the things that i dare not do right now . give an unforgettable surprise to my pals . give a tight hug to my family members

3 ways that you are stereotypically a boy:

no idea

3 ways that you are stereotypically a girl:

too emotional . long hair . coz i have BREAST

3 people that i would like to see take this quiz now:

min gal . janis . shevon

2006-01-27T11:03:00.000+08:00

i dun like to be in this world.

i wanna leave this place.

i wanna go somewhere that i can start all over again.

a place where no one knows mi.

i dislike the way i handle and made decisions.

i'm really sucks in all these shit!

_____________________

i feel so anguish.

2006-01-24T12:00:00.000+08:00

Bryan AdamsI Finally Found Someonewritten by: B.Adams/B.Streisand/M.Hamlisch/R.J.Langewith Barbra Streisand

Bryan: I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet;
Bryan: I finally found the one who makes me feel complete...
Barbara: It started over coffee, we started out as friends;
Barbara: It's funny how from simple things; the best things begin...
Bryan: This time is different;
Barbara: la la la la
Bryan: It's all because of you!..
Bryan: It's better than it's ever been;
Together: Cuz we can talk it through;
Barbara: My favorite line was 'Can I call you sometime?';
Barbara: It's all you had to say...

Together: To take my breath away...
Together: This is it!
Together: Oh, I finally found someone; Someone to share my life;
Together: I finally found the one - to be with every night;

Barbara: Cause whatever I doBryan: It's just got to be you!
Together: My life has just begun, I finally found someone...
Bryan: Did I keep you waiting?
Barbara: I didn't mind
Bryan: I apologize
Barbara: Baby, that's fine
Bryan: I would wait forever
Together: Just to know you were mine;
Bryan: Ya Know - I love your hair...
Barbara: Are you sure it looks right?
Bryan: I love what you wear...
Barbara: Isn't it too tight?
Bryan: You're exceptional!

Together: I can't wait for the rest of my life...
Together: Oh This Is It!
Together: I finally found someone; Someone to share my life,
Together: I finally found the one; to be with every night...

Barbara: Cause whatever I do
Bryan: It's just got to be you
Together: My life has just begun; I finally found someone...
Barbara: And whatever I do.
Bryan: It's just got to be you!
Barbara: My life has just begun...
Together: I finally found someone...

________________________

2006-01-19T11:43:00.000+08:00

WHO YOU REALLY ARE?

You are a person who is keeping things to yourself.

You are a bit more choosy on friends and only hangout with those whom you think are on the same frequency.

What you want in your life is half fullfilled.

You are weak in your life and tends to be fragile.

You have low sex drive.

You have a few good friends in your life.

Your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.

When your partner is around, you will stick around with him/her most of the time.

You've got a low ego.

A humble personality is in you.

You get average bond with your friends.

Your partner is pure and good in your heart.

Your partner is a very homely and humble person.

You seek your partner whenever you are met with problems.

_________________________________________________

something which i find it rather true.

2006-01-16T15:33:00.000+08:00

The road is long and weary.

Your troubles and worries heavy.

Every step seems harder than before.

Everyone is just wanting more.

Your heart is cut and bleeding.

It feels like something is missing.

Why can't anyone hear you?

They are all suffering too.

What lies at the end of this road?

Will I always feel alone and cold?

So many questions, hardly any answers.

It's eating away inside me like a cancer.

If there is a God, please, please help me.

I'm dying, suffocating, i want to be free.

2006-01-16T11:25:00.000+08:00

Specially delicate to: Hui Ci. =)

able to read??

haha.

is the font size satisfy?? haha!

=P

2006-01-16T10:54:00.000+08:00

. my last birthday present for year 2005 .

mentally but not physically received.

*haha.

2006-01-11T09:55:00.001+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday, Shevon Babe =)

updates:

went town to have dinner later on meet wei wen at Chinatown. chill at WhiteHouse with his friends. hmms. we ordered 5 white wines and a bottle of Martell. drink and drink and drink. toOk a few pictures shall upload when i'm free. saw louis, zi shan and yu quan at the pub too. his friends were fun and friendly. they are happening!

yeasterday was damn tired. woke up at around 4 plus. adrian called up in the morning askin mi to go work. . . kinda last minute and was so rush so didnt agreed to work. *gulity

wasnt feeling good for not helping him. bed was juz too tempting. *grins

dinner was great. *yummy + full

2006-01-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

a note to myself:

life still gotta go on. dun get urself stuck and stop moving. it doesnt worth. continue living with laughter. there are others out there who is true to u. -cheer up

==================================

i drop my tears these few days. i'm tired and sick of it.
no use thinking and holding on to it.
i should learn to let go.

i have learn my lesson.

i'm scare and afraid to believe others le.

expect for juan, clement, dan, hui ci, fericia, min gal, wei wen, aaron, ric, janis and eddie.

after this incident i realise who are the people that is worth to befriend with and who does really care about mi.

i shall end it with a (caps) FULL-STOP!

2005-12-28T09:02:00.000+08:00

celebrations!! Hurray!!

was staying at my uncle's place for the past whole week.

i have lots of surprises for the entire whole weekend.

. friday .

meet Fericia for lunch and oso pass Hui Ci and her X'mas present.

Hope you gals luv it. *bleahs.

my previous stop-over friends organise a small but yet meaningful birthday celebrations for mi.

was really surprised. didnt expect that they will remember my birthday.

they brighten up my day!! I Lurve ELDC!! I miss ELDC!!
i love the forever friends bear from Ain and Shafinah and the chocolate cake from the group.
its so sweet.

ohya. my current stopover (MRC) they decorate a card for mi too. *thanx all.

but poor Fericia waited for mi till 4plus and we headed down to my uncle's place for steamboat.
-Yummy

Clement was there too.

was suppose to celerate Weiwen's birthday at nite but was kinda tired so never turn up. =p

. saturday .

went to watch King Kong, after the movie we went DOME to have dinner together with his friends.

after dinner we walked down to PS to meet Eric to take my present den went back to uncle's place and zZzz.

. sunday.

was at town with juan, went Marche to have our dinner while waiting for him. we plan to go Mt Faber to chill but was damn crowded, unable to find packing lots. so we headed down to Cosy Bay with him, juan and juan's bf and friends.

he gave mi a surprised. *piglet and the necklace.

the piglet was realli cute and the diamond necklace was veri lovely too.
*thanx for the surprise and effort..

i noe u sweat like hell.

*Big Smile*

thanx...

. monday .

in the noon went back to uncle's place to change. and then went to Mt Faber again for the sky dining. thanx for the red roses.

one of my cousin was veri sweet too. he did a card for mi.

to others it might mean nothing but as for mi, i find the contents really sweet and cute.

*touch*

ohya. the moment when we alighted the cable car. we saw fireworks.

its so beautiful!

hmms. i will let you off dis once. *HEM! the fireworks will be the replacement for the star which u needed to pluck it down from the sky.

see i'm so generous. hahaHA...!!

after the dinner we went to Sentosa.

the whole nite at sentosa, we juz walk and walk.

walked till we lost our way and gotta seek the Ranger (police) for directions. *OMG

so pai sai. hee hee but it was fun. Rite? -grins

i miss the part where we sat at the so called bridge, staring at the sky looking for the stars with our legs in the sea. do you?

so peaceful with no distractions. misses.......

______________________________________

Colin, hes realli sweet. he placed the gift at my doorstep. at first my dad thought was rubbish and wanna throw away.

went home yesterday, opened the present. its was a tatty teddy. till now he still remember that i like tatty teddy. last year my birthday he gave mi a tatty teddy too. but this year is a bigger version. *thanx.

really appreciated.

a kiss for u *muackz.

messages:

thanx all for the lovely presents, red packets, msgs, calls, cards and surprises.

i love all the stuffs and appreciated the things that you all did.

thanx for playing a role in my life.

*kisses for all!! -MuaaaaacccccckzzzzZz.

2005-12-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

Hey!

u put urself in my shoes.

wat if i tell others abt ur stuffs.

how will u feel?

being betrayed by a close friend whom will always msgs u

askin you to tell her your troubles...worries and console you.

i hate this freaking fake attitude.

u said you didnt mean it. you try ways and means le. you have done ur very best le.

this is juz an excuse.

i think that there is nthin much to tok about.

ya. i'm always the bad person. the one who always finding fault with others.

and you are always the perfect angel, the peace lover, the lovely princess.

enough?

you cry and you are sad.

stop your crap.

u think you are the only person who is sad and the only person who drop tears.

i feel hurt too k?

you didnt lost anything and in additional you have him as a good friend all by urself le.

no one is gonna snatch him away for you.

the whole f***ing stuff is my fault.

i can only blame myself for putting trust in you.

you are not in wrong, can?

or do u need mi to apologise.

and by the way if sayin sorry can solve everything den what is the point of havin POLICE, LAW?

forget the whole damn thing lar.

from yesterday, i longer treat you as a friend of mine.

right now and in future you are just a stranger to mi.

please dun get the wrong idea i dun hate you.

and i'm veri thankful that i gotta see your true color now.

Full-Stop! Bye!

2005-12-22T09:14:00.000+08:00

i'm hurt, deeply hurt.

=..(

i dislike you.

2005-12-21T14:50:00.000+08:00

The power of love.
Love is capable of making someone to lose their senses and directions and principles in life.
Including backstabbing of your own gender and be jealous of it.
How terrifying.
When I started questioning myself, I only have myself to blame.
Am off-guarded against her which became one of her advantage and cue to hurt me.
She had something up her sleeves or maybe a fool-proof plot from the very beginning.
She is out to push me up the walls. I wonder if she had succeed, time will tell. =)
If all you want is someone who can 24/7 be there for u and only you can own.
You can have it by all means.
If all these are going to exchange betrayal and hurt,
I rather have simplicity in life.
But WTF u have your boyfriend still not enough?
aint your boyfriend good to you.

Someone I offered shelter and care when she needed someone to be there.
When she don't feel like heading home, I readily offered her my utmost sincerity company.
I even offer my house for her to stay.
I never thought she will turn her back against me.
I don't bear grudges, but I do hope her karma will go knocking at her door soon enough.
A lesson for mi to learn in life.
I hope it will bring mi to greater heights in life.
I do hope i have learnt to be smarter, stronger and well-guarded against people.
Am immune to any life-threathening plans.

Get far away from my life.
I don't need you.
You are just so fake.

I should erased you off.
You are not fit to be inside the jouyney of my life.
You can and only be a passerby.

presents

2005-12-15T11:32:00.000+08:00

haha. *big smile*

i receieve my very first birthday present.

A Gold Necklace from my Ah Ma. *muack

thanx ah ma.

Shes forever gererous!! She RuleS!

ohya. yest met Dan for dinner.

he bought a Guess bag for mi as my birthday present.

he is the second person to gave mi my present.

haha. so sweet. *bleahz

2005-12-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

i still cant get over that my grandpa left us.

sitting right in front of my com now.

thinking back the last expression that was showed on his face at the hospital.

it really do pain my heart.

i cant accept the fact that he is dead.

i miss his voice, touch, laughter and almost everything of him.

why does God create man and till a point of time he took it away from us??

why do we have to go through that f***ing path??

why cant i juz sacrifice a few years of my life and gave it to him?

why cant i juz took over his place, suffer for him.

hes so old and yet still gotta suffered those pain.

furthermore he stayed at the hospital for nearly a month and he cant consume any solid food.

and he wanted very much to eat a dumpling but i didnt manage to get it for him.

i hate myself, i blame myself.

i fail to be a good granddaughter.

i'm sorry, ah gong. =..(

2005-11-30T14:12:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin awful, sux, poignant, down, depress, heartrending.

please let my Grandpa Get Well Soon....

fillwithtears.

2005-11-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

I am physically & emotionally exhausted.
so much have happened over the past week
in work, studies, relationship be it friends, bgr or family,
and it did affect me in a way or two.
please be over soon.
there are so many things I wanna say, express and confess. but I can't.
I just cant. I can't even confide to my close friends.
I just don't know where to start. and I guess they might not be interested,
and they are busy with their stuff too.
messed up life.

work. should I stop workin or not? *confuse...

..............

so coincidental
gotta noe dis guy Humbert while serving a wedding dinner on Saturday
previously we are school mates in ITE.
we do notice each other presence but never tok only nodding and smiling.
and we always bump into each other even after we graduated.
tat nite was the first time we speak to one another.

gotta chat with him on the phone yest. well nice chap.
at first I dun really have a good impression towards him.
maybe becoz of the circle of friends that he mixed with bah.
now I truly believe that we cant judge a person by its cover.

..............

mia.

2005-11-28T15:13:00.000+08:00

thanx for the kit kat~~

boohoohoo~

i juz love it!!!!!!!!!!!!! yummy..!!

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I really hate TEP (in-house attachment)!!! Free labour and gotta do lots of project for the school, while they can earn money out of it. F***….

They are INSANE! Gotta report early to school and we can only leave the school at 6pm!

wat stupid rules and regulations!!

argh~

my stop-over so SUCK!!

2005-11-24T13:12:00.000+08:00

lOoking
forward!!!!!!!!

2005-11-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

hmm.. *signz

i really hope my granpa able to recover soon.
i dun mind cutting short a few years of my life and gave it to him. if really possible.

dun let him leve us....

the photos

2005-11-15T14:33:00.000+08:00

..:: the pics that we took on Celine's wedding ::..